5:23 p.m. - 2008-05-25
Contemplating...
i never knew that old feelings could surface so fast, so rapidly and the feelings are just as strong as in the past.
i deleted that entry that i wrote yesterday night. the reason? i'm not sure myself. maybe its cuz i'm afraid how people will see me and my views, or maybe its cuz the entry wasn't totally true at relecting my feelings and thoughts.
so i shall repeat some of the things that i said last night. that it sucks having relationships cuz of the aftereffects. that it sucks cuz one song, one note, one familar joke is all it takes to bring you down and bring your feelings back up again. it sucks even more when you realise that it is impossible that you two can get back together again. that feeling of helplessness...i won't want to inflict that feeling on anyone. cuz its that bad.
on to a brighter note, i suppose. i found a job! and i think i would be able to work and commit for that 1 month. its fun working with a friend! can talk cock when there's nothing to do, can find chances to slack and you know that there will not be any politics involved. (: so even though my pay is not fantastic, at least i know i enjoy my work. and another thing is the short working hours that are totally suitable for me. on some days, i only have to work 2hours! rocking!
all right, off to settle my nus stuff. wonder if i should get a laptop.
hmms.
